At first I cried and felt numb. The second day I felt better. On the third day my head felt as thought it may be clearing. Today I have felt out of sad and angry. I need to be stronger than this. I need something to do with myself in those moments when I am overwhelmed with emotion. I sit with myself and let the pain wash over me but it is soooo hard. Anyone with advice?

I knew that the marriage was over. Just two weeks ago the words to an old Smokey Robinson song popped into my head, "I.m just about at the end of my rope abut I cant stop trying and cant give up hope". The words hit me in the gut like a brick.I had been holding on to the love and the hope,and yet, I knew I did not have the power to change him. I know that I gave 200% and it makes me angry with myself.