^ yes, yes, yes. i *totally* understand not knowing the person enough. when i had my "issue", i knew it was going to involve a physical. and i decided i wanted a female to do it, but i was seeing a male GP. so my pdoc told me about a female GP who he thought was good, but i still had to suss her out. so i kept making up excuses to see her until i was finally able to bring up the real problem.

pdoc also referred me to the surgeon who was doing my procedure, because he knew the surgeon was sensitive and sensible about my sort of insecurities. he was the one who suggested going under a full anasthetic, because i was really scared about how i would cope if it was just a local where i was groggy but awake. that helped a lot to quell my fears. i was really worried that if i was half awake that i would make a fool of myself/react really badly when i realised i wasnt in complete control of my surroundings.

i'd encourage you to call that nurses line and have a chat with them. maybe have a chat with the doc who will perform the procedure, too. i don't know what type of endoscopy you're having, but i guess either way it's a pretty sensitive procedure, so she should be able to help quell your fears.