For weeks now I have been playing at being happy for my friends and family well I cant do it anymore.

At the moment I am so sad and weary everything seems too much effort.
I smell like a yak I havent bathed for a few days.
I'm hungry but theres nothing in the house to eat and I cant be bothered to go shopping.
I'm in the same clothes I was in on Wednesday.

I hate it, god I hate me....... I'm such an rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr's

I just cant cope at the moment i'm slowly withdrawing from everyone.

I have all but given up on myself.....

I just need to know i'm not alone and that there is somebody out there that cares.

Polperro