Hello.

I was almost afraid to post here.

but I think I need to.

I have had issues about sex all of my life and guilt feelings about my sexuality all my life. I have been teased and tortured all through my childhood and even through some of my adulthood about my sexuality!

Well, here's my situation now, that brings me here to this forum:

I just broke up with someone after a six-month involvement with him. A week ago, he introduced me to his sister. Since then she and I have grown very close. She is very easy to talk to and be with.

The other night, I had been diagnosed with a bladder disease and as she was an accupressurist, she had come over to my house to give me a treatment for the pain. After ward I fell asleep, gratefully. Last thing I remeber was her sweet face bending over me before she left.

The next mornign, I realized I had a crush on her.

I am still new to "gay feelings". I must be bi, because I know that I AM attracted to both men and women; I have had relationships with both men and women.

But I feel guilty about being lesbian---esp. being bi.

I could not STAND the idea of her knowing, so I avoided her all day yesterday, until she cornered me, asking me what was wrong, and I broke down and told her.

She still accepts me, now, but I am still avoiding her, cause I am feeling so ashamed of myself and my body and my sexuality and I still cannot accept myself.

Can anyone relate?

Thanks,

Billi