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The thing with therapy, is it's unpredictable sometimes. It's a relationship, and things come up in relationships. For me, I have to feel really safe and secure in the relationship before I can talk about the really scary stuff (which is why it took me well over a year to even HINT at the CSA stuff). If I am in the middle of a rupture with T, I have to work through that with him, first and foremost, before I can do anything else with him.

I will say,though, that working through our various ruptures - some serious, some minor - is what has given me the trust in him that allows me to open up the scary stuff. There have been times when I've had to put a burning issue aside in order to work on the relationship. And then, when I am safe again, we move forward.

I know you set this appt aside to talk about the SA stuff...but maybe you could start with how you are feeling about what happened with T and the call. It sounds like it feels like a waste of time to you, but honestly, I think it's the most important thing....and who knows? Maybe you will be able to clear it up quickly, and move on to discuss the SA stuff that you need to discuss.

((((((((((((((((((((MUE))))))))))))))))))) I'm sorry it's so hard!!