I'm not doing well at all. I'm tired. Tired of putting on a happy face, tired of being the one that everyone relys on, just tired. I don't understand why I'm still here. I'm alone. I'm completely and utterly alone. No one cares. I want the pain to end. I'm trying to lose weight and everyone I talk to basically tells me that I can't do it. I'm trying to finish college and I have no money for that. I've been told I need a laptop before I can enroll for college and don't have money for that. I"m at a job that I hate. I hate my bosses. To be honest I hate life right now.