Sky, your brain amazes me! I can't even start to sort this out without prompting, your prompting. I have trouble with forgiveness. I can't seem to get to that space. as for me, I forgive myself as I know I try to do well and make the world a better place. I can't scroll up right now to see your original post. I do not let go of the feelings of hurt for what was done to me. The reason is simple, they have acknowledged no wrong and have scapegoated me. I wish my mind worked better right now as I think this is an excellent thread and would love to know how to speak to each sentence you wrote. There is a difference though I want to mention, eventhough I can't find forgiveness inside, I wish these people no ill as I understand they were/are messed up and life is hard and no one deserves ill wished upon them. Man sky, you struck a chord here huh?