i did not talk to anyone about this until i got on here. I got into trouble when i got home because the boys from the trip would call me. I guess they figured i did something to cause my new "social popularity"... :-( the chaperone had 2 have known with all the talk going around...my guess was that she did not have the courage, skill or empathy to do her job. one of the guys on the trip is a cousin to my childhood best friend. I wrote him about what i remember happening. His attitude about it was that it was normal teenage behavior...teens not knowing what they were doing just exploring. Taking this into consideration, he must have blocked all the other guys actions out...ego perhaps. Said these things happened on later trips he had been on...there must have been an awful lot of negligent chaperones. Anyway, i am starting to deal with this. Told him i was gay...get this...several guys have approach him sexually and he shared his trauma with me...karma maybe?