Thankyou all, for being there for me, it is appreciated.

All I have done today is sat brooded i havent drawn the curtains back, i've sat in the dark all day.

All i've eaten today is a half a bowl of ceral with milk thats on the turn.

I just dont seem to be able to do anything.

I should be happy I received today a job offer subject to various checks, but you know what,.... I couldnt give a stuff about it.

My brother called me on the house phone and I cringed and didnt answer the phone and felt really bad about it but i couldnt answer it.

He called round I didnt answer the door, i was sat in my lounge like a rabbit caught in the head lights of a car, my heart was pounding and I was holding my breath so he wouldnt hear me breath eventually he left.

I feel things are getting worse not better......

Polperro