(((journey upward))) i like your screen name. i know it is difficult when we do all the things we're supposed to do and still feel we are gtting nowhere. this sounds like a good time to call your pdoc. your meds may need tweaking to help get you back on track. i went through what you're going through now and sometimes i just wanted to give up, but we never know when we are minutes away from success. i hung in there and my life is so much better. sometimes the best we can do is to call the pdoc and say "help"! it doesn't mean you have failed, it usually just requires a med change or increase or decrease in dosage.
hope you will keep us posted on how youare doing, k? we do care about you.