Polperro,
I have been where you are. Down to the no bathing,no changing clothes, not eating...everything. I care.
I am so sorry that you are there. I wish I could make it all go away for you.
If you follow through on the job stuff now, you will have much less to regret later when the depression does lift.
It doesn't look like it ever will lift....but it will.
Please please please see a pdoc or therapist. You are worth it. I stared at my phone for 5 hours getting ready to make that first call. It's worth it. You can do it.
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Originally Posted by Polperro
For weeks now I have been playing at being happy for my friends and family well I cant do it anymore.
At the moment I am so sad and weary everything seems too much effort.
I smell like a yak I havent bathed for a few days.
I'm hungry but theres nothing in the house to eat and I cant be bothered to go shopping.
I'm in the same clothes I was in on Wednesday.
I hate it, god I hate me....... I'm such an rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr's
I just cant cope at the moment i'm slowly withdrawing from everyone.
I have all but given up on myself.....
I just need to know i'm not alone and that there is somebody out there that cares.
Polperro
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