Monty Girl,

I agree with what White _Iris has said. Those insiders may have some strong fears that they will be "gotten rid of or killed off ". Many of my alts were afraid they would just "disappear".

When I began to talk to my others and assure them I would be good to them and not ignore them or "try to get rid of them" things got calmer inside and we were able to actually do the work of therapy and not be distracted so often by fear and anger and threats of self harm.

Once my inside family believed that I really was FOR them, not just for the host, we began to do and feel better inside.

Every alter does what they do because they believe what they do helps them survive and helps the body survive. I was startled to realise that parts who harmed or were programmed to self-destruction REALLY believed they were doing the right thing. When I stopped accusing them of being "against" me (the host) there was much less stress/strife and warfare inside of me.

I am sorry to hear that things are going so painful right now. Maybe things will settle down and get calmer soon. I do care.

Leslie and Pixies