I too have feeling lately of thinking i may have DID. My mother was diagnosed with it. I was molested at age 4, my father was an alchholic, he had an inappropriate relationship with me, my parents got divorced, my mom introduced me to a son she gave away at birth that I had no idea about, my mom died right after I got married, then the brother I had just met died, My son was born with a realy bad birth defect, We moved to a foreign country and started a new job, my brother that I grew up with called me and told me he was gay, and I just had an affair on my husband of 10 years! I feel like I am about to go crazy. To have an affair is so unlike me. I really felt like I was a totally different person. I had a tummy tuck a few months ago, and I feel like it spurred on this other personality. My husband doesn't believe me, because I so good at living the rest of my life and hiding it. He thinks someone that is so messed up as I have told himI feel, would not be able to fool everyone into thinking I am ok. I think someone with DID or MPD, would easily be able to do this. Right? I was taking effexor for anxiety. I just started it when we moved here 8 months ago. I feel like that had a part in my affair too. I felt like I could do anything after I started taking the medicine. Like I was untouchable. Like I would be able to pull anything off. It was scary. What do you all think? I'm just really confused and trying to figure out what to do. I need to go to therapy I know, but the therapist I found saw me twice and then went on vacation for 3 weeks. I'm just trying to make it through the next 3 weeks. And save my marriage!!! I don't want to have anymore affairs. I love my husband. I need him to understand this and I need to get the proper help.
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