Hi there Treehouse,

I am here to say the answer. Yes, I had more than one abuser and many in different times and places. My grandfather was into satanism and there was freakin creepy stuff that happened.

My grandfather, uncle, brothers, mother, first pastor, dentist, teen age boy when i was 9, 4th grade teacher the same year. other members of the coven, a satanist raped me when I was 19 and I will quit there.

Those who abused me are inexcusable and not one was held responsible in this life for hurting me. All the shame and All the blame go on them. Abuse began for me in my crib as an infant. I too felt like I had a target painted on my back that only abusers could see. I felt like a "member of the club NO ONE wanted to join." In all they forced me to do I was innocent and coerced and performed to survive. Shame on them!

It has taken me a long time to get to where I am today and I still have a long way to go. I deserve the help I am getting and I am worth all their efforts to help me help myself. I was victimized BUT, I am NOT a victim. I survived and I am a valuable person