Polperro,

I wanted to let you know that I hear you when you say you are so low you can't do anything. Eating, changing clothes, bathing everything seems like such a burden. I hear to that you're very sad. What makes you so sad? Is there something besides the depression weighing on you? You can talk to me, I'm here to listen. I will even give you my phone number if you PM me. I'm sorry you were unable to respond to your brother. I bet he's very worried about you. He probably feels that things are getting worse instead of better. I want you to know there are options out there. If you look in your phone book there should be a number for a suicide crisis line. You don't have to be suicidal to call, and those people are there 24/7 to listen. If there's not a local suicide hotline for you call 1-800-suicide. It's amazing what talking to these people can do. They give you room to just breath and let it all out. Very supportive, loving space which you could probably do with now.

All my love and more,
Tara