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Originally Posted by maymie
I'm not doing well at all. I'm tired. Tired of putting on a happy face, tired of being the one that everyone relys on, just tired. I don't understand why I'm still here. I'm alone. I'm completely and utterly alone. No one cares. I want the pain to end. I'm trying to lose weight and everyone I talk to basically tells me that I can't do it. I'm trying to finish college and I have no money for that. I've been told I need a laptop before I can enroll for college and don't have money for that. I"m at a job that I hate. I hate my bosses. To be honest I hate life right now.
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Hi Maymie,
There seems to be a lot going on for you right now. I'm hearing how you hate your bosses and your job. You don't have enough money for a laptop or to get into let alone complete college. I'm also hearing how tired you are. You sound incredibly tired. Tired of people using you, relying on you. It sounds like you want some time to yourself. You say you want the pain to end. What pain are you talking of? I hear as well that you are trying to lose weight in the face of personal adversity. That's challenging. I'm also trying to lose weight but it's not coming off, so I know how you feel in that respect. Trying to lose weight is stressful. It must be very difficult for you to get up everyday and go to a job that you hate. Are there any options for you with regards to employment? In regards to the laptop, have you tried ebay? I bought a used laptop on ebay for $300 and it works great, haven't had any problems with it. So that may be an option for you.
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now. I want you to know that you're doing a great job by coming here and talking about it, that is the first step to wellness/wholeness. Know too that I am always here for you, whenever you need a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen to you can count on me.
I hope you feel some relief soon.
Love and Hugs,
Tara