Griffe,

I am very sad for you that your body is betraying you right now. i hate it so bad when i am the only one around me in pain again and that I have to suck it up and try to aact strong so I won't be a burden or worse, a bore! It bites!!!

It sure doesn't offend me that you say your hate everyone. About a month ago I screamed at God and said, "I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE EVERYONE AND I HATE ME AND I HATE YOUR GUTS"!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I gave it all I had and did my best to pitch a fit with God. He was annoyingly calm about it all. When the adrenaline stopped pumping all I could sense was God, just sitting there with me. Accepting me.

Feelings are just feelings. Feelings are JUST feelings. What you do with or about your feelings is the IMPORTANT deal. I am just finding my anger and it is about time. I need my backbone returned to me, NOW.

Thank your for your honest and brave posts, your friend,

Leslie