Hi Debbie,

I wanted to offer you the resource of the Samaritans. Their numbers are
Boston: 617.247.0220
Toll-Free: 877-870-HOPE (4673)
You can call them anytime twenty-four hours a day. They are a suicide prevention line and know how to talk to people in crisis. I would highly recommend calling when you are feeling suicidal or even just thinking about it. Having a non-judgemental person to talk to often helps us de-escalate.

You know you're not alone and that's comforting. And also know that there is something better out there for you. Medication and therapy can help if you're not doing either you might consider looking into it. I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. I hope things pass soon into something better.

Love and Hugs,
Tara