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Originally Posted by Abby
Thanks everyone.
Beautiful_Disaster - sounds like you really can relate! Perhaps you may have agitated depression too? I know what you mean about avoiding conversation, i generally do when i'm agitated because i know it'll just wind me up further. It is though something in my brain wants to niggle and run circles around the other person and triumphantly shout 'ah ha you see what you said makes no sense, please do not talk unless you are going to say something useful as it is a waste of good oxygen!'. How awful is that?! Do you feel you have an awareness of how you act? I do, but if i don't do what my body/mind wants to do/say i feel even more tense. Let me know what you diagnosis is, and good luck with the treatment, you deserve the peace of mind!!  |
Exactly ... My boyfriend has ADHD ... and talks too much lol! Consider THAT with my agitation. He is medicated for it now and doing MUCH better. But I use to ask him a question and his answer would last freakin 20 minutes ... when I "got it" in the first 5 seconds lol! Now that was torture. He still does it sometimes but not nearly as often. I have felt like literally twisting his head smooth off a few times lol.
Yes I am pretty aware of how I act. Like the expression ... I have no stop sign between my brain and mouth. And if I try to refrain I feel like I'm about to explode. And sometimes even reflect back and feel bad for being so harsh.