Okay.

Listen very carefully.

Take the knife. Put it in a cupboard or drawer. Far away. Out of sight. Right now, before you do anything else to yourself.

Don't beat yourself up. One day at a time, remember? So you're going through a rough time ... we all do, and the support you can get from T is pretty awesome at times.

Call up T tomorrow and ask for a sooner appointment. Please.

Good reason to not cut I say. Spend time with her right now - she's asleep, right?? Go into her room and watch her sleep if you can. Or look at baby pictures. Anything that reminds you of her. Okay?