Deliquesce, I am so sorry you feel this way - hopefully after reading what others have said you will realise IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT - adults are supposed to protect children - even from themselves if necessary - they didnt - they didnt take care of you - you are NOT bad, you are NOT a *****, you are a kind caring person and you are loved (in the right way ) by so many here and that would not happen if you were bad.

Children do try anything they can to get their needs met and when they have been taught bad ways of showing affection () that is what they do - they lok for affection and caring any way they can good or bad -

you my dear Deli are a GOOD person