Michah~
I understand and appreciate the fact that you have the need to protect yourself and I respecect that. I agree it is not paranoia, but a instinct to self-preservation. You have that right.
I just want you to know that I can't agree with you more on the fact that I, too, have met some wonderfully amazing people here as well, with you topping that list. Befriending you is seeing me through an extremely confusing period, and to be honest, you have offered me insight to myself simply from being who you are. You've had an indirect effect on me through my reading of your posts to others....(No, I'm not stalking you...LOL...hadta clarify that). It is your attitude, the way you perceive life and especially of yourself that has been an inspiration to me. You remind me of how I used to be long before I became lost in my present battle....(Almost forgot about that part of me...then you came along and reminded me, which I am deeply grateful for).
...Just wanted to tell you that...although I fully understand your need to withdrawl yourself some, that what you have offered of yourself is greatly appreciated and, for me, has redirected my path.
Shangrala