(((((((phoenix)))))))))))))) You don't have to know if you "belong" here or not... if you want to post here, then you post here. I think we've all had situations in our lives where we've been abused - even if its "just" being told we're bad or not good enough. That's abuse too.

Post if you want, but only do what makes you comfortable. I know sometimes being in certain forums can be really triggering.

One day at a time. I don't think you're "sick" either... sometimes it's easier to not remember then it is to remember and have to deal with it all.