Think I can????

Ugh. One of the guys in here that she's close to is saying to people "if you've done anything wrong, she's gonna bang you out". There are 3 people on her list already. Great. So it is true. Fun. You know... I was thinking of isolating myself in my room, not going out anywhere, but why the hell should I hide away just because she's threatening people and one of them is me? Why should I let her stop me from doing what I want to do? Pff. Fat chance of that, lovie.

I hate that things like this just keep happening. It's so frustrating and earlier, when Emily told me, I just felt like completely crumbling in front of her. I felt like the world is just completely against me and like it's crushing me more and more everyday... What is the point? If she wants to beat the crap out of me, go for it. The only thing I'm worried about is if she gets into my room and grabs one of my guitar. That's when I'll either lash out at her, or if she's already got me on the floor unable to move, I'll probably pass out or something.

Eeep! I hate it when I get the visions of these things happening it's horrible. It's scary, and I really don't like it..

I just got news of Georgie...
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SHE PULLED THROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just half an hour ago I was bawling my eyes out, terrified that she wouldn't make it! But she did! And she's gonna be fine! I can't believe it!