Today my t and I talked about ways to help me relax and get rid of my racing thoughts so that I can go to sleep at night. He guided me through a relaxation and for some reason I felt very nervous and scared and like I was going to cry.

Ever since, I have felt fragile like I could cry at the drop of a hat. Even with all my depressive episodes, I hardly ever cry.

I am actually afraid that we will find something under the surface that will be scary to deal with, or maybe I am just working so hard all the time to hold it together that we were just breaking through that barrier.

I am going back in Wednesday to do some more work with him.

Anyone have any thoughts on where this feeling was coming from?