Amazonmom
I had a Lamictal rash from hell four days ago, which still makes me look hideous.
I was told to immediately stop taking Lamictal if I got a rash from it & call a doctor

Ever since I have gotten my diagnosis, I overanalyze every tiny thought and emotion.
Tell me about it. i think this is worse than getting diagnosed in some respects. I just lived my life & made my decisions without overanalyzing before. Now I wonder why I do this?Why I say that? Did I say this right? Why are my palms sweaty? etc.
My hubby says not to confuse the label with the identity. I can't help it.
Seems soo simple doesn't it?
Knowing there is a monster somewhere inside me waiting for it's chance to come out just crushes me.
Maybe it's not a monsterMaybe it's a cute little turtle with wings
My T told a story about how one of her clients was pushed into a manic phase by some steroids she needed for another medical condition.
Yep, I've heard of that.
I would get a divorce, because the humiliation of needing my husband to monitor me like that would kill me otherwise.
That's what spouses are for. The reality is every single person on this planet WILL have their life in somebody elses hands at some point in their life. So if it was to happen who better to lean on?
and that story makes me think that T is trying to scare me into compliance by telling me what I will become if I don't do what she says. Well, it worked. If that wasn't the reason, what the hell was the purpose of the story?
Compliance to stay on the meds? or for something else?

The ER personnel said they could give me IV steroids for the rash from Hell, but I refused. All I could think about was the horrible story my T told me.
Take the IV...those are the exception not the rule
I am on the Lithium, so nothing probably would have happened...but there was no way I was going to take a chance at the place where I work....so I am just taking loads of Zyrtec and Benadryl (their second choice)
OK, that's better than nothing
....and forcing myself to drink water so I don't get Lithium toxicity.I have also used the medical library at work to look up all the drugs that could cause manic switches. I will never go anywhere near any of them, even if I should.
That's a list I would love to see...I like the manic phase
I am just whining and ranting and wondering why I am destined to be a freak for the rest of my life.
Hey!!Do you think of anyone else with your condition as a freak? I mean I seem normal...don't I? wait...bad example...but if you don't see others with it as a freak then why wouldn't you give yourself the same benifit?
I completely understand this...I dealt with the same feelings, but the only thing you can really do is change your way of thinking about it.
I don't even want to go to my T session today but I am guessing I should anyway. Don't really want her tracking me down after having to call her on Monday about the rash.
Probably a good idea...atleast to you find one your more comfortable with.

Nobody has to respond, it wouldn't change anything anyway
I know i don't have too...I want to...you are on my friends listI like friendsThey give me goosebumpsI like goosebumps

LK