today I got up and thought about my mom. I miss having a mom. things were never good with her and when she died I thought " wow it is over" she can't hurt me anymore, but today I just wish I had her around for some reason. I do have a stepmom but we aren't super close. I want a mom! I want a real mom! one that didn't hurt me all my life! I was a good daughter. Hard to understand how a mother could be so mean and hurtful, especially to a kid that was a good one.
sorry I will stop rambling now.