that I can no longer be the woman I use to be is so very hard. to realize I can't do the things I use to that are needed in every day life. to realize I can't earn an income. to go out and do fun things anymore is taking its toll on me lately. well heck..let me be honest here. I have been severely depressed for over a yr now due to all things listed and then some. some days I just want to sleep and not wake up but that is not my path. I am too young to be retired! medically or otherwise! errrrrrrrrrrrr