It is such a huge weight off my mind, but I'm still worried about her... That's just because I can't See how she really is and stuff.

I've got to stay here another month-6 weeks. Ugh. I do hold onto how much better it'll be when I'm out of here and everything else, that has been enough to keep me going, but I'm just slipping back into a really deep depression. I managed to cover it up and block it out for a while, but now it's kicked me in the arse again and the demon voice of depression and ana is back.

I just wish that this place could be rid of all these horrible people and just be a place where people are kind to each other, help each other out... Not shout and scream at 1am and kick peoples' doors. I know you get stuff like that anywhere you go that's supported housing, but come on... Surely people can see it from the perspective of 'how would I like it if someone did that to me?' No. They bloody well don't and it makes me so angry.

I do so much for this place and yet what do I get? People threatening to hurt me, kick my door down, making me scared to sleep in case they bash my dorr whilst I'm asleep and I wake up having a panic attack. No-one should have to live like that. No-one else here does have to live like that, so why the hell do I?

I'm super stressed and fed up today, just... Want to snap at everyone that is negative or nasty towards me, or just generally being grumpy and an arsehole for no reason. I'm never like this. I hate it. But today, I'm just sick of holding back.

I wish I wasn't here.