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As I child, I said throughout other threads, I used to pray for friends.
As an Adult I used to say "I want my Mommie" - I didn't have one.
I had one only as I exited the channel.
No father - Until I turned 40 the contact we had he wanted Me to Be His MATE!!!
The step fathers were my abusers all forms.
As well as Judy the 'mom'. She allowed.
I never could understand why I couldn't Please her, though so much I wanted her love.
Even to this day - she continues her way - But I gave her up years ago....
BUT still she triggers me
There are four of we sisters ALL have been abused. All of us she kept alienated from one another growing up in the same house. We were never able to bond.
Abuse was different, our memories are different, - and if she did show any 'type' of caring she would do it for only one, one at a time, if any!
40 years later we have re-united, why because someone ignorant, but a Blessing from God, told her I was dead.
It hit the family telephone line and behold my sisters and I have been brought together -
OH, THAT IS 'NOT' what she EVER EXPECTED ............
Though each of us have our individual childhood issues and are leary of each ofter, because what is safe being brought up by her to be against each other.....
We are now BONDED.... THE BOND SHALL NEVER BREAK.....!
I'm sorry but BLOOD in her cause is thinner than water - she is a lost soul, a demon, a devils pawn, who continues to TRY and stir the pot, create drama.... BUT IT NO LONGER WORKS.
PRAISE THE LORD.
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