I dont think u are being selfish at all. Sometimes us Mom's have to stop and realize that if we want to continue being Mom's, we have to take care of ourselves! Being unhealthy, whether physically or mentally, is not good for you - nor your family.

I hope your husband is up for a second job, and he will be able to handle the finances for awhile, so that you truly can "let it all go" and have a safe place to be. I think many many of us with panic disorder are really control freaks, and its so hard to let go of things we have managed, but sometimes, it is just time to step back and ask those around us to pick up what we had been doing, and GET BETTER ! I hope all this works out for you soon, and that you are soon feeling better!

You know how to reach me if u ever need or want too! Good luck Jen !