At 20 and 21 yrs of age, I had nervous breakdowns. After the first one, my boyfriend broke up and I was on the brink of offing myself.

This morning, I'm remembering that time. I don't know why. But for some reason, I keep going there and want to grieve, I think. Or something.

I don't know why this is happening. I think I have tears inside, but I don't want to let them out. I don't have a safe place to do that.

I wish I had my therapist to talk to. He would have cared; then I could cry.

Out of 3 or 4 forums I visit, this one seems the safest one to reveal this to. Other places judge you, but you haven't done that to me. Thank you.