The memory of SA when I was 5 is haunting me. I cannot let go! I keep trying to relax and let go, but I can't!

I keep getting triggered ~ and this morning was really bad, during a visit with my T as I talked about a trigger.
My sleep pattern has sucked (BIG time!) for over a month. Only getting about 3 hours of sleep per night. I look like crap, I feel like crap, and I'm feeling overwhelmed by intense emotions!
Shez