I could tell you to not feel guilty about this but I understand your feeling of guiltiness. I have to find a job soon and I don't even know if I can hold one. But I feel guilty not to be able to support myself and help financially my children. I also have work all my life and I was the one who brought the most money in to pay for almost everything. This is the first time in my life that I really don't want to go to work. The first time that I feel like you do that I need time for myself.

If you can do this my friend, just do it.
Many hugs!
nightdream