i want to thank you for the support and feed back. I guess take things one day at a time. I even thought to use rags for toilet paper and throw them out right away until i can get some tp at the food bank tomorrow. I can also go to the mental health shelter to wash sheets towels and jeans for free and handwash the rest. i also have 2 possible part time job leads...one is under the table, but unless she comes out from under the table and complies with federal law, i can't work for her. I cannot work full time due to my mental health. But i can keep looking...i am going to goodwill this week to apply, i was told they have a waiting list, i will apply just the same. I know i will have bad days where getting out of the house is impossible, but for the most part, once i am working, i think i will feel a lot better about myself in being able to take care of myself and my cats. They are taken care of now...food, litter, just had their advantage flea treatment for the month.