She's not being supportive. That is her putting me into a false sense of security so that I go to her about something and she has that as ammo against me. I know her ways by now. I know how her mind works and how spiteful she can be. If she saw my scars, she'd have a massive go at me, scream and shout and say that I'm an emo and an attention seeker. When I told her I had to go to hospital because of the chest pains etc, she called me an attention seeker. I'm not an attention seeker and I wasn't trying to seek her attention, I was just correcting her.

I expect my T will call me in approx. 10 minutes to find out where I am and I'll explain about it and such.

I was quite hot and bothered last night anyway, with Bryony saying what she did on top of that and such... I was lying in bed trying to sleep and could hear people shouting and screaming, banging doors etc, which really got on my nerves. I drifted off at about 1am. But woke up at 4am and by 4.25 am, I was being sick for absolutely no reason that I can think of. I just woke up feeling sick and eventually was sick. I guess maybe it was the anxiety of what Bryony might do/say next or something, and the stress of all the stuff that's been going on. I have no idea though.

I feel so wretched today. I didn't sleep after that and got up for breakfast club feeling like I was going to throw up again. I didn't want there to be a 5th time. I got to breakfast club and started to open up the kitchen and just felt a wave of nausea sweep over me. I put my hand to my stomach to see if that would help a little, and just stood still for a bit. I almost ran back to my room... But I was okay after 5 minutes. Ugh. I just feel terrible today. There's no way I could have traveled to my appointment with my T today, I'd have never have got through that bus journey. I always feel sick on that journey as it is, let alone already feeling sick and then feeling more sick on the journey. Ugh.

If my T has spare time, I expect she'll call me later at some point to see if she can come to where I live to see me, make sure I'm okay and stuff. I don't know.

I just feel horrid today Can I have a hug?