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It's very difficult for people who do not self mutilate to understand the compulsion behind the act. They can just cry and find relief however, we are the ones who have no tears to cry only blood to spill.Our relief is in finiding that we truly are human and can feel something. ..... Regardless, there is support for us out there. Although, it doesn't help with the compulsion......
What helped me was when I feel the urge is to write it out. To write it down as if it were happening only in my mind. To not forget one detail. To include the reasons why. This way instead of cutting up my arms and having to hide the cuts and feel the annoying itching afterward, I can just peek at my writing and feel it there. Plus the writing never fades. It's almost like a picture of the SI only in words. I don't know.

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<font color="blue"> I agree with Vul on some things.... I cannot cry when I am in SEVERE pain and SIing is my only way of releasing my pain. It is the way I can FEEL....There is HELP for you out there but yet is DOES NOT help with the urges at all....this I know first hand... My T has me journaling right now....I write all my feelings down emotions and all and keep writing and writing until I cannot write anymore....write anything that comes to my mind down about how I am feeling...sometimes it helps and sometimes it does NOT help...but I take my journal into my T and I read it to him and it helps him to understand how I was and am feeling. So journaling can help even if it does not help at the very moment for the SIing............The Cutting on your legs can be ouchy I know..........so I ......well I cut on the top of my thighs where if I wore shorts it would still be covered...yes it is ouchy but I do not think of that at the moment of doing it...Just know your NOT alone and I TOTALLY understand where your coming from and if you ever need to talk just PM me anytime...take care...{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}</font>