he said you have to accept what happened and move on -

You accept what happened and work through it!

and now I will have a new T ... and I wont know if I will trust them... I dont think i will be able to talk to T - any T about this...

You will trust a new T when you get to that point..........

maybe its time to face this. It just brings out feelings of incredible sadness that I dont know if i can bear....

Part of the process........