peaches, how are you feeling now about what you posted? i think it would be terribly difficult for me to accept. i would be shattered, actually .

i think i agree with mousey a bit more, though. pdoc certainly fills me. he can't go back to when i was a kid and fill me there, but he sees me struggle now and he heals that wound. he told me once "i can look after you". and i think that is what i've been looking for. someone who can look after me, someone willing to give me that. it is kind of like snuggling under a mother bird. i feel safe there. but he's also a good mother bird (ha! he would hate this analogy!) because he's getting me interested in the outside world and helping me test my wings. i know there is going to be no one prouder when i finally leave home, and i feel secure thinking about that, because i know no one can take away what we share now.