Jay S, Hi and welcome!!! Glad you found us.......

Okay, what other types of behaviours have you noticed that are different/not usual for you or escalating in intensity? You mention a situation where you feel intense abandonment and separation anxiety. This could also be indicative of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and other personality disorders. have you had a triggering event lately? End of a relationship, loss of a job, money problems, a death?

What made you feel that there was something wrong? Sorry for all the questions......it is just a baseline.....

Sweetie, It would be negligent of me to help dx you. Borderline is one of the most complex mental illnesses to dx. You need a good team of professionals to give you a correct dx. If you are misdx, you can spend years pushing mud uphill and wondering why you are not getting better......very dangerous. It took 13 weeks to dx me......with personality testing and a stint in hospital with round the clock therapy and monitoring and I was considered "textbook" borderline. I fit all the criteria.......still took that long though.

As for the Sanity Quiz, be careful how much you interpret from this......not saying it is not an effective tool, but I am generally suspicious of testing without a competent professional to help analyse the data.

Sorry, but I think you will need to take the bull by the horns and start searching for a Therapist. It is the only way you are going to know for sure. we all know how hard it is to make that decision. It is terrifying. We can support you through the process, but you need a T to help you feel better. You have taken a big step alraedy in coming here, so keep the momentum going and get the help you need......You are on the right path!!

We are here.......