I went to therapy last night and unexpectedly went into some really deep abuse issues surrounding my childhood. I wanted to stop, but T kept pushing to describe what happened in detail and confront the flashbacks and dreams that keep me up at night. She says that continual exposure to the trauma will gradually decrease my PTSD symptoms. Right now... I don't believe her. It's been hell since then. When T tried to bring me back into the room( mentally) I completly zone out.. I guess dissassociated. While processing, I almost became physically ill, it was emotional torment. I went into an alternate reality where T was just a figment of my imagination. I felt as though I was in a dream, feeling disconnected from my body. T had to clap her hands and snap her fingers to get my attention. The pain was( and still is) so intense that i'm terrified to go back to therapy. What was once suppose to be a safe place, feels terrifying for me now. I requested next week off, but feel as though a couple weeks might be needed. If anyone has ever experienced this I would like to know. Please share.