Ok I gotta share...As some of you might remember when I first started visiting this site one of my most pressing issues was getting my financing for college taken care of because it seemed like I had hit a brick wall with only 19 credits left to go. Well, I have it solved now & it's a combination between feeling relieved & excited about moving forward & felling really crappy about myself at the same tme....

My mom & my grandma are going to give me the money I need to pay off my past tuition bill so I can enroll for the summer...I greatful & embarrassed at the same time because I have been self sufficiant since I was 14 & am the only one of the grand kids that had never borrowed money from my 96 year old grand mother...She's given money to the other grand kids that they've used on drugs & most are in prison...so I justify because I'm using it for college...but at 33 it's just embarrassing to need to borrow money from them...

So I'm feeling happy & crappy at the same time...does this make any sense

LK