that's a really great post, tay . thank you so much for sharing.

((tree)) - yes, i relate quite completely to what you shared. pdoc cares about me even when i can't (or won't) care for me. and somehow, this manages to fill me up enough that i'm strengthened to try again. and then i look around and am surprised! that there are other people in my life who care for me also. weird stuff, eh? but yeah, i didn't accept people's caring or love very well before pdoc. i still have a hard time accepting it from him at times, but he's someone who is consistent and doesn't get put off by my repeatedly questioning why.