Thanks for your encouraging posts! They helped. But I can't do anything untill after my exams finish in two weeks, shouldn't even be here as I'm wasting potential study time.....

Unfortunately today was not a good day. I made a timetable yesterday to try and stay motivated to do my work, cos I have an exam tomorrow but I wasn't able to concentrate or do much at all. I just ended up sleeping half my day away... again. Which made me feel even studpider/lazy-er/even less motivated because I was so bad at life.

I made the stupid timetable because my mum told me it would help to schedule some "free time" and "exercise" into my life, but it ended up just making me feel worse because I wasn't able to stick to it. (I think she suspects that all is not right in Elspeth-world).

Then this afternoon I tried practicing my exam with my bf, and it turned into this whole thing where we end up talking about how I've got to get my life together otherwise I'll ruin our relationship...blah blah blah.. It seems like I can't do anything right.

sigh... I really do think I'm bad at life.