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I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time right now, but I'm glad you recognize the effect your depression is having on you. Do you have a T? If you do, maybe you could get in contact with them so you at least have someone to talk to for now. I'm sure your friends have good reasons for not calling back, but in the meantime talking things out with your T might make you feel a little less alone. Keep posting here, too. You matter and we care.