NF...
Sometimes we do get overwhelmed with a helluva lot of things happening to us/going on in our lives.
Recognizing that your are reaching your limit is actually a good thing...you have the chance to stop it before it gets worse.
Please try not to be afraid of going inpatient; as far as I know, it's no longer a lengthy stay but more like a stabilization unit.
Not exactly a vacation thing, but not long term unless you are a danger to yourself/others.
Many times it helps if we can remove ourselves from a crappy place and allow ourselves to rest/talk/sleep.

Keep posting, ok? We care about how you are doing...
I'm signing off now, but I want you to know I'll be holding you in my thoughts for peace and hope to grow in your heart.

Catherine