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May 21, 2009, 04:19 PM
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Member Since: May 2009
Location: UK
Posts: 822
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So, I've had OCD for many years.
OCD has affected me a lot. It has caused a lot of anxiety for me. I do compulsions. I hate it, but yet can not stop it. I have obsessive thoughts. I get stuck on them. I have intrusive thoughts. I need a lot of reassurance. I fear a lot of things. I hate them all. OCD has, and still does, affect me badly. I hardly now do any checks, I have learnt the more you do them, the worse it gets. It worked. It was tough, but it did work. The compulsions settled after a few months of resisting and cutting down how much I do. I still struggle a lot and OCD does clash with my other difficulties, too. I do have very disturbing images, intrusive thoughts, and obsessive thoughts, but I fight back. I feel a need to "confess" a lot of the time, and seek excessive reassurance if I do "confess", and feel like a terrible, bad, evil person, but I cannot control the thoughts or images and such. It's so complicated and so confusing, as well as quite scary and lonely. Very stressful, too... 
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