My T pushed me to reveal that I had been SA as a child - but he didnt press for details - he said it was enough i had told him that - we talked about other things then - movies and stuff till I was calm again - then he told me that i would feel bad for finally telling but that it was the first step in healing - he said i could discuss it again when I was ready - and we did discuss the feelings to do with it but not the actual blow by blow stuff -

I am sorry you were so badly triggered that you disassociated - T's office and T should be safe for you - and I am sorry it does not feel that way at the moment.

I hope you can disuss this with your T and let her know exactly how you felt - maybe print and take your post with you...

I hope you feel better soon