((((Abby))) there is so much pain and despiar in your post - I wish there was somthing i could say to help you stop - to realise that you are worth saving - that you do not deserve to be hurt this way - that there are other ways to deal with these emotions.

To stop SI - jmo - but i think you have to not only deal with the emotions that cause you to SI but the reasons behind the emotions - the reasons that are causing the emotional overload. A good T can help with that - I have had ones that did not fit - that did not help - but I have also had 2 wonderful ones that helped me a lot

I stopped SI for over 9 months after seeing one T - unfortunately i could not continue to see him - but the next T helped me too. You have to find the one that fits well with you.

Not being able to deal with your emotions does not mean you are faulty or lazy or anything else - it means you are in a lot of pain and the pain is too much for you at the moment - please try not to be so hard on yourself - ask yourself if you were talking to a friend would you say the things you've said to yourself ... I dont think so.

Please be kind to yourself - seek help if you can and let us know how you are P7