yes I know that feeling - giving in will only add temporary relief and you have done so well - WOW one and a half years WOW!!!!!!
are you seeing a T?
can you do somthing else that keeps you so busy that you forget about it - hard I know - somthing that keeps your hands busy....
I hope you can hold out and not hurt yourself - take care
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet